Hodge Podge

Not that what I wrote in my last post is not the truth...but, I can't wait for today to be over. Seriously. Mother's Day. Get 'er done. C'mon Monday!!! (And, Monday is NOT my fave day of the week.)

I was covered today...since my eyes opened...with a feeling of just...wanting to wrap myself up and sleep the day away. I'm not sad. I'm not upset or angry. I just 'am'.

I went to church...and found it really difficult to worship Him. I love God...but I did not want to raise my hands in the air. I did not want to open my mouth and sing. I did not want to clap...or pray...or have anything to do with the service today. Such a mixture of thoughts, feelings and emotions...today.

(Granted, the pastor that gave the message today was REALLY terrible, too. I'm serious. She was REALLLLYYYY bad. I considered getting up and leaving, she was SO boring, but I wanted to go to lunch with Sally and the rest of our pew posse.)

I felt very quiet. I didn't sing. I didn't raise my arms. I didn't speak.

I did think. A lot. I could have cried a lot, too. But I didn't want to open that tap.

Lunch was a great distraction and very funny (our pew posse is wicked funny). AND!!! Sally opened her gift. :o) She loved it!

Also, I somehow - and unknowingly - chipped one of my teeth. Thank goodness it doesn't hurt...but it's sharp and irritating...and I fear it WILL hurt. (I have mega anxiety about dentists, so this will be a fun week!)

I think I'll spend the rest of the evening watching tv and trying to keep myself awake for a few more hours. I'm really tired. I feel a bit drained, to be honest. This is going to be a really busy and hectic week for me, on the work front...I'm just hoping people will leave me alone (people being colleagues who want 'stuff' from me) and that I can get some productive time under my belt and get some projects completed and off my plate.

I really wish I could make password protected posts on this blog. I feel like I'm holding back right now...on several topics.

Hodge podge of random topics...